[ HEY THAT'S CHEATING!!!!!!? Also a little panic inducing, especially that moment when the elevator is suddenly falling instead of rising. In fact, she might have shrieked a little unconsciously. ]
F-Fine, then, I understand that--you think I have an appeal, even if I do make other men laugh or freeze, but--
[ She's leaning harder now, really putting her arms and back into it, and probably accidentally tapping that button on the wall behind her. You know the one; "open doors." ]
--If you really want me, then--just not here!
[ there is nothing romantic or even sexy about the hellevator of all places, which ought to be. evident. by the fact that she's tearing up a little. ]
[ he actually has her up against the doors themselves and not the button panel but crying is in fact cheating
he lets go. releases her wrists, pulls his hand away, wraps his arms around her waist and buries his face in her hair to breathe. incredibly small-voiced, muffled against the side of her head ]
yasuragi had--he had said something similar to that effect--quite some time ago, and that had been before she'd been able to feel his heart, but--well, thanks to Princess Maker, that had. Become months, mentally. And a lot had happened since then! And... and it occurs to her, now, that the signs she had mistaken for being turned-off had. been. the opposite. and that maybe the periods of silence and the lack of communication weren't disinterest...... ]
[ moving her head to rest against his in turn and tightening her grip on his shoulders. ]
.... But I don't you don't have anything to be jealous of me over. He clearly likes you as well. He confides in you, and--you've had sex many times, right? And he insisted to Raijuu that you were as much family as we were--and that he wouldn't leave you behind.
[ okay well his arms may be going slack but her grip is just getting tighter. ]
Maybe. But--there are things that you can give him, others, that I can't either. And--I love you, as well, even if there are things you can't give him, or me. I love you for the things that you can.
[ grips tightly at the fabric of her clothes and clams up for one second, two seconds. and then he lets go entirely and steps away, slightly forcefully if necessary, going to collect the clothes and bedding off the elevator floor ]
He what? It takes her a moment to understand what he means. But not that long. It's not been that long since the end of their horror show.
She won't try to hold him in his arms if he's forcing her off, however--he will in fact find her re-barnecling to him in another fashion, getting a grip on the back of his robes and latching on tight. ]
If you think that I could have saved him from being hurt, then--that's impossible to know. If I was the heart instead, and if I'd died--then it would have been horrible for him some other way entirely. And if he'd been the heart, then--there is no saying that your unit would have listened to me. Kuzuebiko, Ken, Maki--they're all very strong-willed people who think and feel differently than I do--and you forget that I, too, chose to attack Avante in the last round. Or our heart might have been targeted anyway. You can't blame yourself for not being able to protect him.
[ even though I already do for myself. don't be me!!! ]
you feel like you are just a series of disappointments to multiple people that you love and you're not sure how to fix things but you just desperately just want to fix things. how can she fix things.
how can she prove to yasuragi that he is loved and important. ]
We don't have to talk. Just--please--anywhere but in here is fine, your room or--or--the greenhouse--we even have a garden in our quarters--I want you to touch me, but just not in here!
[ simple dog noises!!! not literally but. figuratively.
she. knows a rejection when she hears one though. And she doesn't want to cause a scene--anymore than she already has. but there's also marigold's accusations about her playing favorites and being left at the altar running around in her head and everything just now was a lot. ]
... Then you wouldn't mind it if went together, then.
[ since you already know you are loved and valued, just her presence at her back shouldn't be a problem, right? ]
if you're fine with making out in the elevator now we can do that after all. he still has the bedspread folded over one arm, but he slides the fingers of his free hand through her hair, cradling the back of her head as he kisses her again, more deeply ]
[ she definitely seems okay with it--at least, one would presume if she wasn't, she wouldn't be gently running her tongue across his full lower lip while she reaches up with one hand to stroke his face from his cheek to the roots of his hair at his temple all the way to the tip of his pointed ear. ]
[ the elevator dings and comes to a halt back at Taisho. he ignores it.
angles his head a little bit into the touch of her hand as he parts his lips to meet her tongue with his, drawing hers into his own mouth to suck on with a swallowing motion. he pets her hair almost thoughtlessly, fingertips massaging circles into her scalp, and if she peeks she can watch his eyelashes flutter when she strokes his ear ]
wheezes I only just now realized my last tag was with the wrong journal fkmsd
[ look, it's fine if they're playing around on the hellevator, there's what, nine others?
it's rude to watch, but what he doesn't know won't hurt him, right? of course--when he starts petting her hair, and massaging her scalp, her eyes close again and she moans, soft and needy, into the kiss as she presses herself closer, emboldened to so far as moving her hand into the opening of his kimono. she's so hungry for touch, always, and--it's been (what's felt like) a really long time since the last time anyone's touched her like this (the hellevator fiasco from minutes ago excluded)--even though a part of her distantly remembers they were going to go visit Shuten and it would be much nicer if it was three of them doing this instead of just the two--she's impatient, and hungry. ]
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F-Fine, then, I understand that--you think I have an appeal, even if I do make other men laugh or freeze, but--
[ She's leaning harder now, really putting her arms and back into it, and probably accidentally tapping that button on the wall behind her. You know the one; "open doors." ]
--If you really want me, then--just not here!
[ there is nothing romantic or even sexy about the hellevator of all places, which ought to be. evident. by the fact that she's tearing up a little. ]
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he lets go. releases her wrists, pulls his hand away, wraps his arms around her waist and buries his face in her hair to breathe. incredibly small-voiced, muffled against the side of her head ]
I’m so envious of you.
I SWEAR i'm going to bed but this first.
What? Why?
[ she would have been less surprised if he told her he was really a woman. NOTHING LIKE A SUDDEN SHOCK to stop the tears tho.
just. kind of. fro...ozen. for the moment. before letting her arms drift close around his upper back.]
I shouldn’t encourage you but I can’t complain.
[ he almost sounds like he’s going to laugh until he abruptly doesn’t. tightens his hold on her, his shoulders tensing up towards his ears ]
He likes you, even if he’s nervous. We talk about you, you know.
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oh.
yasuragi had--he had said something similar to that effect--quite some time ago, and that had been before she'd been able to feel his heart, but--well, thanks to Princess Maker, that had. Become months, mentally. And a lot had happened since then! And... and it occurs to her, now, that the signs she had mistaken for being turned-off had. been. the opposite. and that maybe the periods of silence and the lack of communication weren't disinterest...... ]
I didn't... I made some mistakes.
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.... But I don't you don't have anything to be jealous of me over. He clearly likes you as well. He confides in you, and--you've had sex many times, right? And he insisted to Raijuu that you were as much family as we were--and that he wouldn't leave you behind.
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[ an exhale, maybe or maybe not a laugh ]
I know very well he likes me. I’m not so insecure as that. But there are things that you can offer him, offer anyone, really, that I can’t.
[ the circle of his arms goes a little slack ]
I am a proud man, but I know my own failings.
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Maybe. But--there are things that you can give him, others, that I can't either. And--I love you, as well, even if there are things you can't give him, or me. I love you for the things that you can.
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[ grips tightly at the fabric of her clothes and clams up for one second, two seconds. and then he lets go entirely and steps away, slightly forcefully if necessary, going to collect the clothes and bedding off the elevator floor ]
I’ll take him his things.
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He what? It takes her a moment to understand what he means. But not that long. It's not been that long since the end of their horror show.
She won't try to hold him in his arms if he's forcing her off, however--he will in fact find her re-barnecling to him in another fashion, getting a grip on the back of his robes and latching on tight. ]
If you think that I could have saved him from being hurt, then--that's impossible to know. If I was the heart instead, and if I'd died--then it would have been horrible for him some other way entirely. And if he'd been the heart, then--there is no saying that your unit would have listened to me. Kuzuebiko, Ken, Maki--they're all very strong-willed people who think and feel differently than I do--and you forget that I, too, chose to attack Avante in the last round. Or our heart might have been targeted anyway. You can't blame yourself for not being able to protect him.
[ even though I already do for myself. don't be me!!! ]
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It seems my temper is still frayed. It's better not to continue on this topic.
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you feel like you are just a series of disappointments to multiple people that you love and you're not sure how to fix things but you just desperately just want to fix things. how can she fix things.
how can she prove to yasuragi that he is loved and important. ]
We don't have to talk. Just--please--anywhere but in here is fine, your room or--or--the greenhouse--we even have a garden in our quarters--I want you to touch me, but just not in here!
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turns around and reaches out to her with his free arm, brushing her hair behind an ear and leaning in to kiss her cheek ]
I know that I'm cared for. I've never doubted that.
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she. knows a rejection when she hears one though. And she doesn't want to cause a scene--anymore than she already has. but there's also marigold's accusations about her playing favorites and being left at the altar running around in her head and everything just now was a lot. ]
... Then you wouldn't mind it if went together, then.
[ since you already know you are loved and valued, just her presence at her back shouldn't be a problem, right? ]
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I wouldn't mind.
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although I guess she will also let him talk, maybe, some. ]
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if you're fine with making out in the elevator now we can do that after all. he still has the bedspread folded over one arm, but he slides the fingers of his free hand through her hair, cradling the back of her head as he kisses her again, more deeply ]
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angles his head a little bit into the touch of her hand as he parts his lips to meet her tongue with his, drawing hers into his own mouth to suck on with a swallowing motion. he pets her hair almost thoughtlessly, fingertips massaging circles into her scalp, and if she peeks she can watch his eyelashes flutter when she strokes his ear ]
wheezes I only just now realized my last tag was with the wrong journal fkmsd
it's rude to watch, but what he doesn't know won't hurt him, right? of course--when he starts petting her hair, and massaging her scalp, her eyes close again and she moans, soft and needy, into the kiss as she presses herself closer, emboldened to so far as moving her hand into the opening of his kimono. she's so hungry for touch, always, and--it's been (what's felt like) a really long time since the last time anyone's touched her like this (the hellevator fiasco from minutes ago excluded)--even though a part of her distantly remembers they were going to go visit Shuten and it would be much nicer if it was three of them doing this instead of just the two--she's impatient, and hungry. ]
I’ve missed Hiyori
Did you change your mind?
She's a good girl too.
... I--I would like to do more with you
But Shuten will be out of the shower soon. We shouldn't leave him waiting.
... And... I'd like to do those things. With both of you.
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If you like.
[ impassive words like always, but he sounds approving ]
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[ said. with more forcefulness. trying to be! assertive! and confident! even if she feels the opposite of both of those things. ]
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Then, let's gather these up again.
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